Mm. . . . That's probably not going to be enough until this is all over.
But it's not about how hard you punish yourself. If you think only about the blood on your hands, you'll lose yourself to that which can't be washed away. At the end of the day, you have to come up with a way that lets you live with yourself as you are now.
... I know. I intend to see this through until the end. [ that much, she can promise, though the guilt has seeped into her bones ] I won't give up for anything. So don't worry about that.
(And then, after I'm done here..... I'll accept my fate.)
[ she doesn't want to worry (tm) him or make him feel sad ]
.... I was accused of being a witch, in a place where you get burned alive for that "crime". I was found innocent, but... my friend tried to confess to being, like... the worst witch there is, 'cause if that witch is found, all the trials will end. They were going to burn her.
[ there's a brief image of a girl, locked in an iron maiden, looking defeated and ready for death.... ]
I couldn't let that happen. I got her out, but.... those knights locked me back inside the cage, and threw me into the fire.
[ and the mental image of herself, locked in that same iron maiden..... the heat suffocating, and she's struggling to breathe already ]
While his expression doesn't change, his thought betrays his disgust and heartache. So many precious lives, lost to stupid injustices. After what nearly happened to Maya, this is like a sick joke, except it isn't—it's reality.
His arms tingle faintly in remembrance of the morning he wrapped them around her.]
[ that's why she wanted to be voted for over denji or anyone else. she was already executed, after all. at least, if she was executed this time, it'd be for a crime she actually committed. ]
[ luckily, everything worked out, but..... ]
I haven't decided yet.
(If it's even real to begin with...)
But it'll probably be to stop anything like that from ever happening in Labyrinthia again. Or.... for the sake of my village.
[ it's probably no surprise she's not planning to use it on herself ]
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I think.... I'm sure she's already punished herself more than enough.
[ don't perceive her ]
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But it's not about how hard you punish yourself. If you think only about the blood on your hands, you'll lose yourself to that which can't be washed away. At the end of the day, you have to come up with a way that lets you live with yourself as you are now.
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(And then, after I'm done here..... I'll accept my fate.)
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His smile fades into wary curiosity.]
What fate is that?
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(....)
I don't want to upset you...
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Maya, are you . . .
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... Sorry, Mr. Sieghart.
[ looks like he's figuring it out, so there's no point in playing coy ]
I was... executed, right before coming here. That's why I freaked out so badly, when we first met....
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What happened?
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.... I was accused of being a witch, in a place where you get burned alive for that "crime". I was found innocent, but... my friend tried to confess to being, like... the worst witch there is, 'cause if that witch is found, all the trials will end. They were going to burn her.
[ there's a brief image of a girl, locked in an iron maiden, looking defeated and ready for death.... ]
I couldn't let that happen. I got her out, but.... those knights locked me back inside the cage, and threw me into the fire.
[ and the mental image of herself, locked in that same iron maiden..... the heat suffocating, and she's struggling to breathe already ]
.... And then I woke up, in your arms.
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While his expression doesn't change, his thought betrays his disgust and heartache. So many precious lives, lost to stupid injustices. After what nearly happened to Maya, this is like a sick joke, except it isn't—it's reality.
His arms tingle faintly in remembrance of the morning he wrapped them around her.]
. . . What's your wish?
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[ luckily, everything worked out, but..... ]
I haven't decided yet.
(If it's even real to begin with...)
But it'll probably be to stop anything like that from ever happening in Labyrinthia again. Or.... for the sake of my village.
[ it's probably no surprise she's not planning to use it on herself ]
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It's not like he can talk. But talk, he does.]
Can't you do both yourself?
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Whatever's happening in Labyrinthia... it's waaaaay bigger than just one person. I could only barely get Espella out with my own power...
And, my village, has a lot of problems..... I don't think I could.....
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[ kurain has been fuckt forever ]
What about you, Mr. Sieghart?
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What about me? . . . Ah, do you mean my wish? It doesn't apply to me anymore, so I've forgotten all about it.