[ That note from before, saying anyone can be chosen to kill is a reminder to him. There's fear, fear for everyone, that people will keep getting hurt. They'll just keep seeing bodies. ]
Try to value yourself more, Maya. Think about your life.
[ well, she knows she is. she's been hurt a lot, by people she trusts. a lot. ]
I don't think my life is anything all that special. [ that's pretty honest!! ] But... I do want to stay alive. I want to end all of this. And I don't want to cause you any more pain. So... I'll try to be more careful.
... Thank you, Maya. It'd make me very happy if you would value your life over mine. You're a lot brighter than you think and people care about you, you know?
[ His emotions are genuine, grateful. ]
And there's no point in throwing it away for someone who's already dead.
[ maya thinks nier is too young to die, too.... but this is why she kept it a secret.... she didn't want to hurt him, or anyone. but she couldn't stand to hear him talk about himself like that ]
[ (she's a hypocrite) ]
... Good. You have to get back to her, no matter what. [ there's real relief, here ]
You saw that memory of mine, right? The trial, where I was in a cage? Well, it ended with me being thrown into the fire.
[ maya expected it, but.... she just feels guilty. that seems to be a running theme with her. ]
[ it's still such a shock to her, too, that people get so angry for her sake. the only person who really went to bat for her like this... was phoenix. ]
[ it's really touching. but she doesn't really feel like she deserves it. ]
Well... I'm alive right now, so I'm going to make the most of it.
[ the vibes here are.... bittersweet. happy, loving, but she misses mia so much nier can feel it himself ]
Really, really incredible! She's the strongest person I've ever known.... and so smart, and everything. You remember Nick from my memories, right? She was a lawyer, too, and she taught him everything he knows. She even bailed him out a bunch of times after she died.
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[ That note from before, saying anyone can be chosen to kill is a reminder to him. There's fear, fear for everyone, that people will keep getting hurt. They'll just keep seeing bodies. ]
Try to value yourself more, Maya. Think about your life.
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[ well, she knows she is. she's been hurt a lot, by people she trusts. a lot. ]
I don't think my life is anything all that special. [ that's pretty honest!! ] But... I do want to stay alive. I want to end all of this. And I don't want to cause you any more pain. So... I'll try to be more careful.
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[ His emotions are genuine, grateful. ]
And there's no point in throwing it away for someone who's already dead.
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[ she'll get to all that in a second but-- ]
Are you talking about yourself?
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[ Congratulations, Maya!! Though this wasn't something Nier was hiding at all. ]
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So am I.
[ surprise matchsies!! this was something she was hiding, actually. ]
And I think your life is something that should be valued. I'll... do as you ask, but.... I want to ask you the same thing.
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... I don't plan to die. My sister is waiting for me at home. [ Which is why he needs that wish, but— ] Maya.
How?
[ You're young. shut up nier you're only like 3-4 years older. ]
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[ (she's a hypocrite) ]
... Good. You have to get back to her, no matter what. [ there's real relief, here ]
You saw that memory of mine, right? The trial, where I was in a cage? Well, it ended with me being thrown into the fire.
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Of course he’s angry. There’s a deep well of rage. ]
That’s… Unfair.
[ He feels even worse that he can’t do anything about it, so he has to accept it. Somehow. Some way. ]
We’ll get you back.
[ He has decided?? ]
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[ maya expected it, but.... she just feels guilty. that seems to be a running theme with her. ]
[ it's still such a shock to her, too, that people get so angry for her sake. the only person who really went to bat for her like this... was phoenix. ]
[ it's really touching. but she doesn't really feel like she deserves it. ]
Well... I'm alive right now, so I'm going to make the most of it.
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... The present is the most important. [ Though Nier would prefer Maya to look forward. ] What did you see back there?
[ On the trip because he knows Maya left to help him instead. ]
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[ he's right, though, and he should say it ]
.... My sister.
She's already dead, though.
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[ He's weak to family. He really is. ]
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Really, really incredible! She's the strongest person I've ever known.... and so smart, and everything. You remember Nick from my memories, right? She was a lawyer, too, and she taught him everything he knows. She even bailed him out a bunch of times after she died.
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Then confusion. ]
... How does she do that after death?
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You know how I'm a spirit medium, right? In training. Well, I channeled her spirit to help Nick out.
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Oh—so you actually can talk to the dead? That isn't... Fake?
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[ maya is hurt by that, though it doesn't show on her face at all ]
No, it's real. Channeling spirits... I can call her spirit into me, for a little bit. To give her a chance to bail Nick out when he's in a pinch.
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[ There's a sense of awe since Nier comes from a world where the dead is dead. There are no buts whatsoever. ]
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Yeah... she really is amazing.
If she were here, we'd be done and gone with this lousy place already.
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... I'm sure she's watching over us, at least. I want to think everyone is.
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[ maya wishes she could reach her, there's a pretty deep melancholy feeling here ]